Blog — Personal Growth

(Jan. 11, 2015) I felt pretty connected and "in the flow of life" as a child and teenager. I got married young, at the age of 18, and had my son at 19. During my young marriage, I would say I was fairly unaware of my own spiritual path. When we divorced at age 24 and my mother passed away the same year, I was what they call "cracked open." I began questioning so many things, questions like, “what is my purpose?” and “what will make me happy?” I was determined to figure it out. Those words figure it out...

(Jan. 11, 2015) It's taken awhile for me to fully integrate what I've learned from my second surgery. On October 31, 2014, I had an open abdominal myomectomy to remove fibroid tumors that were causing me health problems. In total, the doctor removed 11 tumors, the largest of which were 7 cm, and in total they all weighed 6 lbs. I got to see a picture of them at my two week check-up, but I will spare you the image. Needless to say, it was pretty amazing to witness what the body can grow, and what doctors have the power...

(Oct. 22, 2014) I had surgery at the beginning of September. I am calling this "part one" because I am having another more major surgery on Halloween and I am sure there will be more lessons learned with that one. My recovery was about three weeks with this past surgery, and the next one will be about eight weeks. I'm hoping a longer recovery means more growth and a deeper restoration of my spirit. I am also hoping that having the minor surgery first will mean that I am more prepared going into the next one. There's a lot to...

(Mar. 22, 2014) I let go of something this week. It was something that I needed to let go of very badly. It was something I desired for a long time, a dream, if you will. Unfortunately, no matter how strongly I've desired to make it a reality, the timing is simply not right. Rather than be continually subjected to the awful feelings associated with wanting something I cannot have, I realized the only thing I could do was let it go and stop torturing myself. I have a life to live after all. So I decided that it was...

(Jan. 16, 2014) I'm a little late in posting this since it's related to the new year, but I wanted to share my core desired feelings for 2014. I did a lot of "feeling my way" through the exercise of coming up with them. I would try on a word, for example, "amazing" and then I would feel how it would resonate in my body. I've been feeling my way quite a bit lately in terms of making decisions, or just asking myself simply, "what do I need most right now?" or "what feels the best?" Honestly, this perspective has...